life stuff

HI everybody!!!
Sorry it’s been awhile since my last post. My life has been crazy. I have battling some depression about my dad and then I have also been slammed with work. I’m still going through some growing pains with the new job at ROCKHARBOR. Its been challenging me to be better and to work with people better. Yes I can still learn new things.
I have been thinking about my dad so much this month. I don’t know why but it’s been really hard. I miss him so much. I had a really hard time one day when a couple of my roommates were thinking with their fathers and I missed my dad so much that day. But its one step at a time for me

late night

Tonight I can’t sleep. A million questions and worries keeping me up. I don’t know they seem to hit me when I try to go to sleep. I just want to rest and get ready for tomorrow but my brain won’t shut off. I really miss my dad and how things were before he died.

humbug

I don’t feel like the holidays yet.

turkey day recap

i hope everyone had a great turkey day. I had fun with boomer. Plus we didnt burn the house down. I will be posting a video shortly which will show me and boomer makeing a thanksgiving meal. I think its going to be a fun wekend too. Im recording my brother and we are laying down tracks in the studio its lots of fun. I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Ps go usc

Weekend

Sometimes i feel so out of it. Im tired of bad things happening to my family.When are we going to get a break as a family. Im tired of it all. I just want to go hide in a cave or get in a big brawl. I know that sounds dumb but what is more dumb is all the ish in my life. Why can't i seem to get a handle on it.
This weekend was really hard. I just ran from it and ran right into the old ways of dealing with life. Why do i do this? I want to be better!!!!!

Dads birthday

Today really sucks. I MISS my dad so much!!!!No one understands. I hate today. I dont want it to happen ever again. I want these feeling to go away.

I feel so......

My life just seems to be in a enternal slump. I dont feel good. I haven't been sleeping good. My mom hit her head on the fridge yesterday. I don't know if I am going to get this job at the church. one of my brothers dogs died 2 days ago. Friends are acting wierd. I feel the weight of the world on me.