feeling

Sometimes I feel too much. I don’t want too anymore. The pain sucks. It’s a part of life. Does it really ever go away?I feel so wore down by all the emotions. I just feel like crying whenever Im alone. That’s when I just put on the headphones and try to deal with it. Most nights when I close my eyes I see my dad laying in bed and taking his last breath. Why did he have to go so soon? Its not fair!

party for my dad

Come celebrate the life of Dennis Riggs. He died far to young. He was amazing husband, father and friend. He loved the lord with all his heart and he is in a better place. A place where cancer and stress cant bother him. The service will be this Friday July 25th at faith chapel in San Diego.

screaming out

These days just suck for me. I’m over it! I’m so tired of my dad being sick. I’m so tired of stupid cancer!!!!! He just got test results back and the treatment has been non-effective. So now he is waiting on one more set of test to see where he goes next. It’s not a positive outlook. I’m also tired of the family stress. It’s out of control. My dad is really sick and all the stress doesn’t help or the stress of his sickness makes is crazy. We need a break through in our family’s life. So now I have finished school and I’m jobless and my dad is dying. Something needs to change. Are you listening God?

upside ----downside

It’s been a rough couple of days. My dad is fighting cancer and got released but he has not been feeling good. I haven’t been feeling good either. Im ready for the summer! But when summer comes it will bring all its own set of problems. Life is crazy! I feel like I’m stuck on a rollercoaster that will never end.

back to the west

Made it back from the trip to Florida. It was a lot of fun and a great experience. I learned a lot about how to sell myself to other people. This festival was all about networking. We meet a ton of people. It was cool to see how people responded to our film.
We got selected to be A&E indie film spotlight. This is a major honor. We are stoked to be recognized in this way. They cut a commercial of our film and put it on their website. Also they will be running 20 second spots of the film on A&E.
So all in all it was a fun weekend. I’m glad I was able to go. My sister even flew out for it so that was way fun to. The showing of 305 at Newport Beach film festival sold-out in 8 days. Some of the festival organizers said they have never seen a screening sell out like that. So now they gave us a second screening. I’m hoping that we can sell that one out too.

busy and resting

Hi all.
It’s been an exciting last couple of days. I just got back from my senior cruise. It was lots of fun! I have been stressing a lot the last couple of days. My dad is in the hospital again. He is starting new treatment. They found new cancer in him. This sucks a lot! I wish it were all done with. Also I’m getting ready to go to Florida with 305. We leave on Wednesday. I’m stoked and nervous about it. I think we will do well but with my dad being sick it’s had to have fun. I hope he can make my graduation. He wants to come but doesn’t know if he will be able to. I am looking forward to finishing school and getting on with life. But we will see how all that goes.
All right so that’s basically the update and I got to go and do some homework.

the road dog life

The trip was so amazing. We went to Fargo North Dakota and Ogden Utah for film festivals. We showed our film “305”. I had such a good time. I need it badly. It was really cold in Utah and North Dakota. We got a really good response. The audiences laughed throughout the whole film. I felt really good about it.
At one point we were driving back to Utah from North Dakota and I was sitting in the backbench of the van. I was so tired and sick of the van. But at that moment I felt a complete peace about it. Like I knew I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing. I was with the right people and doing the right things. I can’t wait for what is in store for me when I finally graduate for vanguard.
A little update on the film we got accepted into the Palm Beach international film festival. That’s huge for us. That’s a top ten-film festival and is really respected. Also we got into Newport Beach film festival. So that is going to be a huge party and all my friends on the west coast have to come. Hopefully we can have the DVD available to sell in May.