Thursday, January 31, 2008

life in general

I feel worried about my life and family. It’s hard not to worry. I can be a control freak sometimes. I hate when people start doing stuff and I feel like I’m being replaced. I just want to be good at what ever I do. This pass week has been tough for me. My dad has been sick and battling cancer and an infection. Those are not combos. The treatment for cancer kills your body’s defenses against being sick so it is harder on you being sick. My family feels like a big stress bowl right. My brother is working my dads company and my mom is struggling with my dad being sick. Meanwhile, I’m trying to finish at school. I have been feeling so depressed lately. It is hard to fight it off. Something needs to change quickly.

Friday, January 18, 2008

screaming til it hurts

Sorry it’s been awhile since I updated the blog. It’s been a rollercoaster of a ride. SO everyone knows about how we were waiting to start the second round of treatment for my dad but we had big problems. Apparently Medicare decided to tell the hospital that my dad was not covered by them for the second round of treatment and he was not covered for the first round. I’m so sick stupid government stuff like this. So my sister knocked down some doors and pimp slap Medicare into covering my dad.
This kind of stuff just makes me so mad. I mean my dad is going toe to toe against a disease that could kill but he also has to battle Medicare. I swear I just to explode on some people. This stuff makes me just want to scream out in anger, pain and sorrow for my dad. That might be the worst part of this journey. I can’t do anything to help my dad with this. I can provide emotional help but a part me wishes that could over this with a snap of the fingers.