Monday, October 20, 2008


Sometimes i feel so out of it. Im tired of bad things happening to my family.When are we going to get a break as a family. Im tired of it all. I just want to go hide in a cave or get in a big brawl. I know that sounds dumb but what is more dumb is all the ish in my life. Why can't i seem to get a handle on it.
This weekend was really hard. I just ran from it and ran right into the old ways of dealing with life. Why do i do this? I want to be better!!!!!

Friday, October 17, 2008

Dads birthday

Today really sucks. I MISS my dad so much!!!!No one understands. I hate today. I dont want it to happen ever again. I want these feeling to go away.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

I feel so......

My life just seems to be in a enternal slump. I dont feel good. I haven't been sleeping good. My mom hit her head on the fridge yesterday. I don't know if I am going to get this job at the church. one of my brothers dogs died 2 days ago. Friends are acting wierd. I feel the weight of the world on me.